Beginning Redux

I am not a huge fan of the Black Eyed Peas but I do like one song. It's anxiety. There is a lyric that really hit me.

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's
I've been dealing with something that's worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and that's the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoia's brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

I have some Anxiety issues in the past, but nothing compared to what my mother has gone through. She has severe near crippling anxiety. I bring this up because at the moment she has no anxiety meds. Which means not only is she really anxious but she is also dealing with some withdrawal. She barely got past her last withdrawal.

Since we knew this was coming we did some preparing. This morning we bought some Advil, Imodium, Benadryl, Alka Seltzer, Ginger ale and Vodka. The Advil being for her head of course. The Imodium is not only for her stomach but it is also an opiate which will help with the withdrawal. We got Benadryl because it is an Anxiolytic, which means it can help with the anxiety itself. The Alka Seltzer and Ginger ale are for her stomach and finally the Vodka is just to help with her nerves.

I tried a bit of it. It is horrendous. It tastes like rubbing alcohol. Or at least what I assume rubbing alcohol would taste like. It was nasty.

In case you were wondering everything combined did almost nothing. Not completely nothing. It did just enough to be noticeable.

I said before that sometimes nothing is good. Sometimes it's not.