Over the past week and half my mother has been double dipping into her anxiety meds. This means that she is now on half dosage.
So for the next two weeks she has to deal with starvation rations. This has me worried. There isn't anything I can do about it. I don't have access to anti-anxiety medication. I have been prescribed this type of medication in the past but do not have any at the moment.
She has done this before. As long as she gets some amount in her system, she can deal. But if she pushes any more she may have to deal with another withdrawal. She always ends up like this.
I don't know why. Actually that's not true. I do know why. As bad as her withdrawal was, it is in the past. Once you get past something like that the effect wanes. I have been going through something similar. Nowhere near as drastic though.
I am a big fat guy. And as such have had more than one incident that made me question myself. Many in fact. No matter how bad they were I always shrugged them off and went right back to over eating.
Changing your personality is the hardest thing in the world.
I know.
I have been working on that for ten years. No since I was 13 or 14. So close to 15 years. I am just starting to see progress.
Slowly but surely.
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