Earlier my mother decided she did not want to go back on Vicodins. She was going to flush the few she got from her dealer. I told her to just take them back. Money is tight and we can't just flush cash away. In hindsight this was a bad choice.
She took another pill today and is unsure what she is going to do. She has to make up her mind soon. She has been going to therapy weekly. During these visits she has to give urine. This means it is only a matter of time before she is found out.
Now she isn't a part of any rehab group and has nothing depending on the results of these tests. Nothing that is but the continued prescribing of anti anxiety medication. She is worried that is she comes clean about her slip that her Psychiatrist will be hesitant to prescribe her meds.
In the past I have urged her to be honest. This has proven to be bad advice. I am unsure of how to advise her. The one thing I know for sure is that sobriety is not something you just achieve. It takes constant work.
In the course of a lifetime a few slips are nothing. I hope she understands that. I hope she accepts that. I hope that is what this is. A slip and nothing more.
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